Nick Cannon Mourns Son Zen On 1st Anniversary Of His Demise – Hollywood Life

Nick Cannon posted an emotional tribute to his son Zen, a yr after he died from a mind tumor at solely 5 months outdated. The TV host, 42, shared a photograph of himself cradling Zen in addition to a number of different pictures of Zen on Instagram, as he recalled how tough the day he died was. He revealed that he had a sleepless evening earlier than the “painful anniversary” of his demise on Monday, December 5. “Mentally and Spiritually I’m damaged,” he wrote. “Been tossing and turning all evening, and as a lot as I do know I want relaxation, final evening I couldn’t sleep in any respect.”

Nick referred to as the day that Zen died the “hardest day of [his] life,” and spoke about how he nonetheless has so many feelings following his son’s sudden and surprising demise. “Shedding a baby needs to be the heaviest, most darkish and depressive experiences that I’ll by no means recover from. A combination of guilt, ache, and sorrow is what I suppress day by day,” he wrote.

The Masked Singer host additionally spoke about how a lot he tries to share and unfold love and stated he wished his son might’ve skilled it extra throughout his brief lifetime. “I really like massive and I really like with my complete Coronary heart and Soul and I simply want my Little Man might’ve felt extra of that love whereas he was right here on Earth,” he wrote.

Nick additionally revealed {that a} non secular chief had informed him he was “within the midst of one of the difficult seasons of [his] life,” and he spoke about his current hospitalization for pneumonia. He stated that he might use prayers whereas wanting again on the demise of his son. ” I can positively use these prayers proper now,” he wrote with a damaged coronary heart emoji. “Proceed to Peacefully Relaxation My Son, Zen Scott Cannon. We Love you Eternally.”

Zen was Nick’s seventh youngster. He fathered the newborn with mannequin Alyssa Scott in June 2021. All year long, Alyssa has shared various heartbreaking tributes to her son. Practically a yr after their son’s demise, Nick and Alyssa introduced that they have been anticipating one other youngster, his twelfth. She shared a nude photoshoot to share the information. “It is a MIRACLE & a BLESSING,” she wrote within the caption.

Alyssa has made her Instagram personal, however earlier than she did she shared a transferring memorial for Zen in August. “My physique feels it. I’ve been on the verge of tears the previous couple of days. Making an attempt to maintain a ahead momentum,” she wrote. “I miss my boy.”